Awakening

Jenny's log: a week and a half out from the last time I was stressed out over work.

It took a complete week for my mind and body to decompress from the past year + of stress and frustration. Literally. This past Monday was the first day I felt like a fog had lifted and I felt rested. RESTED! I wanted to listen to music while driving in my car (anyone who knows me, knows this is HUGE!), I smiled a lot, laughed a lot, liked my husband a lot more, liked my kids more too. Heck, I even like all of our pets more!

The past few days, I've been able to think clearly, cook meals, plan ahead, do housework, spend time in the yard. I've taken the dogs for walks, done situps while watching tv, I have READ. yes, I have literally sat down in the middle of a weekday and read a chapter or two in the book I'm currently reading.

For all intents and purposes, I have awakened. 

My mind and my body are mine again. I am able to take back control and ownership of both of those things that I had allowed to drift away. I am present here with my family. 100% present. I am meal planning and activity registering and appointment prepping. I am getting ORGANIZED!!!

Now that it is finally over, I am grateful for having gone through what I did with my job. What great perspective it has given me and how it has opened my eyes to what is truly good and important in my life. While I chose to learn it the hard way, going through the last year and a half has shown me that at this time in my life, I am unable (and now also unwilling) to commit to ANYTHING - job, girls nights, activities - that requires so much of me that I am unable to be anything less than 100% present with my family. 100%.

While I stand on the threshold of a new beginning, I am so thankful to be AWAKE and aware of my internal moral compass once again. Clean slate, clear head and restored spirit heading confidently into a world of opportunity.